I have almost filled an entire notebook with scriptures, journal entries, and prayers. This is unheard of for me!
This journal, this precious, pink, pineapple journal is filled with personal treasures. There’s a part of me grieving that the pages of this book will soon be filled. The other part of me rejoices that I’ve recorded encouragement, challenges and truths from this season of my life.
As I considered how the words written throughout these pages have changed me, I wanted to go back to the beginning…to the words that began this amazing journey.
I was on a plane headed to Israel, having no idea what was in store for me. This journal, which had been saved for this moment in time, was finally opened. On that first page I put pen to paper and began to write.
The first entry was filled with a variety of emotions. A few hours earlier I had said tearful good-byes to my family and was now headed to a foreign land with a group of strangers! What was I thinking? I was excited, scared, anxious, eager, and unsure all at the same time.
But, as I began to write the words flowed from my pen and I began to tell the story of this wonderful life-changing adventure. The words below are the ones that completed my first entry. A sweet and memorable conversation Ellis and I had as I was about to walk out the door that morning.
As I was leaving Ellis said, “Are you going to see God?”
It took me a minute, but my response to her was “Yes, yes I will.”
And see Him I did. Not just on this trip, but in every moment and day since I have come home. The pages of my notebook are filled with the many ways I have seen Him! I can flip through this precious journal, stop on any page, and be reminded of how the Lord is teaching me, refining me, encouraging me, and most of all, loving me.
Allow me to share some of the words I have written these last several months.
November 2, 2015 (In Israel)
I kept saying that this trip was for a purpose. It was going to be life-changing, but I didn’t know in what ways. Now I know there are many ways.
- The friendships
- Levi’s Bar Mitzvah (I have yet to share about this amazing day!)
- Biblical Gardens and Ayala
- Igniting a desire and passion to understand my Jewish heritage
- To be comfortable sharing my dreams and a call from the Lord
- Igniting a desire to dig in to the Old Testament
- Door of humility (Another lesson I look forward to telling about)
December 31, 2015 (New Year’s Eve)
From Job’s friends comes such judgement…As Job speaks, his words are an expression of his sorrow, misery, and unanswered questions, but through it all he still affirms who God is.
Job Chapter 9
“Indeed, I know that this is true…
- His wisdom is profound…
- His power is vast…
- He moves mountains…
- He shakes the earth…
- He speaks to the sun
- He alone stretches out the heavens
- He is the maker of the Bear and Orion…
- He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted
January 22, 2016
“I can’t do it all and I don’t know how to balance it. Lord, help me not to get discouraged…As I wake I want to be aware of His glory and as my day ends I want to be aware of how I made it through because of Him.”
I was reading Exodus 18 when Jethro, Moses’ father-in-law, comes and gives him good counsel.
Exodus 18:18 “The work is too heavy for you; you cannot handle it alone.”
April 19, 2016
Romans 1:1 “Paul, a bondservant of Jesus Christ…”
How do I describe myself?
Kristen, wife, homeschool mom of 4
This can sound insignificant, but I have the opportunity to be a great influence on those in my house.
Romans 1:8 “…your faith is spoken of throughout the whole world.”
It’s an amazing thought that their faith would be that far-reaching. I want my faith to be heard of. To spread far and wide.
So, here they are. Some of the words filling my pages. They may not be profound, but for me they are powerful! Recording my time with the Lord has given me a tangible resource to turn to. I have re-read many of these words and I can tell you, every time I do, I see God.
So that seemingly simple question from my curly girl of whether I would see God now has an easy answer. I just open the pages I have recorded and share.
I want to encourage you to grab a notebook and begin recording what the Lord has laid on your heart. It may be a prayer, a verse that stuck out to you as you read, or a thought you had reading a passage of scripture.
Maybe you’re thinking, “I don’t like to write,” or “I’ve tried to journal in the past, but it never lasts.” Right now I could go and grab at least half a dozen partially used notebooks from drawers and off of shelves. These were from well-intentioned times in my life when I desired to journal, but after a few weeks or months the journal would get tossed aside never to be picked up again. But, even today as I open these unfinished notebooks, I can clearly see His finished work.
Grab your journal. Write it down. See God.